who ever thought...

I find myself racking my brain over the thoughts that run through my mind of the images replayed of the last day I saw your face. I hate that we didn’t seal the night with a kiss because who knew that u’d be the only one I miss. Nothing has hit me as hard if I’m being honest with myself, I’m going insane no1 to blame so I must play the cards I’ve been dealt. But you had your dirt too so there lies my anger. I can’t think of talking, dancing, or conversing w/ another stranger. When a heart breaks, it doesn’t break even, but I never imagined you’d be the one leavin. I fell so hard without a plan of recovery so forgive me if I stumble to my feet from the pool of misery.

So many years alone I hope the one to come things would be different. Who knew that you would be the one I’d grow missin. I sound like a sap I feel like a loser, but who ever thought that I would loose her? I hurt so much I’m confused with emotions should I call? Should I write? Or just go with the motions? Because she told me it’s a new year so just go with the flow, but kissing you and holding you is all I know. So when you take that away I really don’t have much, but the memories of what was and thought of to clutch. We started off good so is there still hope? A crack of sunshine? Or should I continue to mope? I’m on a roller coaster of feelings just waiting to get off but if you’re the conductor then how can I get off? Till then I’ll leave it to my words to get me through but still..

who ever thought that I would loose you?