set yourself free

nicolay & kay - the lights (instrumentals) WORK ON THIS SONG

don't you see me looking at you from a far
and i can tell you that you're so pretty you are.
this world is big enough for the both of us
plus 1 maybe 3. sit back n map out this plan with me.

i kinda like this space that we created yes i do.
it sorta got me rejuvenated for me and you
like maybe if we contemplate it. then this can be true
we can stay in it. but first you got to believe in you

CHORUS
don't you let nobody
tell you that you
can't be anything
that you wanna be.

let go from all those thoughts
and just set yourself free

i know you've heard it all before bout how this world is cold
and how you hurt and cry cuz you just feel you're all alone.
I'm here to save the day with a plan and kiss for you
we can stay in it. but first you got to believe in you

don't let nobody tell you that you don't belong here
you're my joy my life my heart my everything my dear.
i thank the stars that you were sent for me.
if this is a dream then don't you dare wake me.

CHORUS
don't you let nobody
tell you that you
can't be anything
that you wanna be.

i see a future in us if you just
set yourself free

RAP
2:18
i know its bad when you think its all good.
i know it sucks like you thought it would.
but you can't self destruct like that.
i can't let you down just like that.

its gets better once you stay on track
you'll see the happiness just know i got ya back.
you have more power than you think you know
just start in your heart and learn to let go.

out from the darkness comes light i promise.
you got a lot more left girl you got this.
i'll be ya coach and ya partner, all of it.
you can't run away from pain run towards it.

easier said than done ya i know this.
my head can get a little big  bumptious.
it's this thing called trust do know it?
let me show you whats its like and you can benefit.

CHORUS
don't you let nobody
tell you that you
can't be anything
that you wanna be.

i see a future in us if you just
set yourself free

CHORUS
don't you let nobody
tell you that you
can't be anything
that you wanna be.

let go from all those thoughts
and just set yourself free

(lyrics are by Catrina N. Jones) Instrumental is NOT.

Random Thoughts

follow my nod with sounds from ya ipod. or ipad. but may i add its not as simply as that. complex drums n beats fornicate. kinda like our bodies when thought this could be a mistake. the best things comes from dreams n seeing as you're the one I'm seeing lets make this dream a manifest destiny. bring it into the realm of reality. i think its not half bad of me to compliment you oh stop ya flattery. I'm just being real ya see. don't stop the flow of dappery oozing from the left and right of me. i can't control this reliance you have on me. this tenacity to not see past me. *********** i stood there dumbstruck. cuz you never once gave me up. theirs this sort of awe about you. this sort of raw about. this sort of i could never be caught without you. i boast about you. pedestal status. i sorta placed you on this apparatus like matter and filled with magic i said i gotta have her. i had to have you. i had to love you. i had to need you. I believed you when you said i was the one. ************ i knew i had it bad i knew i had it bad when you asked me for the time. its like i was frozen or somethin. it took me a moment to remember the hour half past my mind. i nearly lost my mind when you crossed my line! its like you was meant for me or something. like we was meant to be or somethin. i dont know i just know you a blessin. cuz for the skies to part the way they did. you had to have been some sorta magic. im not a wizard or magician so no tricks when i say what im spittin. its a higher power in work miss. so just kill time with me before you go to work miss. lets practice our vocabulary a bit. whats the word for love when nothing else can compare to what i feel? Whats the synonym to what i know is real? i got a hankerin for some adulation, hard affection, maybe theres an inclination of a little bit of impatience. cuz I've been waitin too long for this kinda love to come along. ***

Do you mind?

feeling stuck is nothing new to me. it's nothing unusual to me usually, its how it shouldn't be. but lately that's how it has to be. i guess. i haven't found the reason yet. but i bet it's standing right in front of me. only problem is it has this glossy blurry coat. it looks sorta gross. it looks like something i have to discover on my own. so does that mean i have to be alone? it's sorta a solo journey. it's sorta a draining discovery. there's a lot of uncertainty behind this glossy imagery. its gonna take some time for me to see whats ahead of me. so do you mind, holding me?

"Boulevard"

It's just the way it goes down the boulevard repeat X3

see i think about the way that you're looking today.
as it usually goes you're lookin so beautiful.
such a line so simple ignites those sweet little dimples

to do a dance for me
gotcha smilin so easily.
i thought id stop by for a second
and have you bless me with your presence.

just to say we spoke today
simply made my day.

why it gotta be this hard
wit you
wit you livin so far?

but.. It's just the way it goes down the boulevard Repeat X3

I wanna take time out to give ya moms a shout out.
much respect to the originator of all this
no surprise y'all got this

cuz to be that fine,
deserve all the lines.
better than a pick up line,
you deserve all my time.
but better than a pick up line, you deserve all my time. just to say we spoke today, simply made my day. why it gotta be this hard wit you wit you livin so far? but.. It's just the way it goes down the boulevard Repeat X3 I guess i never really knew, that these clouds could ever turn to blue. i guess i never really knew, that my dreams could ever come true. but repeat X3 why it gotta be this hard but repeat X3 wit you wit you livin so far? but.. *ad lib*

Change in gears

Speed builds as we these bodies collide with other species. We switch up paces and make weird faces, depending on the place of course. We stay faithful on our present course. So not to allow any outside force a break in this coastal pace. Steady as she goes down that bumpy road unaware to how bare she exposes her soul. hoping, wishing, praying for a leap of faith or some warm embrace. After all, what is to be expected after this unexpected pace? Such a race this was. To the unkown watering whole were souls unite to pick a fight about whose might had the better night. The shoulda woulda couldas shout at the top of their lungs as to come forth a unity so powerful, that it blinds the dids. change gears for a second. check it. just breath for a minute and understand the complex simplicities this world had bestowed upon you. It's a hidden jem with an exciting discovery. Unluck your pleasure to wash away your misery. Let what should be, be. Be free. It's easy. Change gears for a moment. A dawnting task proclamed from the ones that laugh. Only to stand in awe of what they saw. happiness in it's purest form.

still..

"Be still!" I've been told this many times in my life. it's something ive strayed far away from. how dumb right? right.

I've been so cold so many times in my life. so frozen in motion i guess you could call it to being still how dumb right? right.

"only the lonely die slowly" i use quotes to fill in the spaces of in absence of my brain coming to the plate. I'm constantly on the move to meet the whose who of this town! I can't stay still because I'll miss the next big thing! It could be my turn for.. well.. anything! No one has time to be still when thres so much to do and see and be and feel and is this real? and...

SLOW THE FUCK DOWN. STOP.

in other words.. BE STILL.

soak in the sounds around you. allow yourself to be.. still.

here you can find what is real. find how to feel. find all what needs to be seen. how dumb right?... right?.. wrong.

the truth was here all along. be as strong as you allow yourself to be and be... STILL.

These are the moments.

these are the moments where i feel the most alone. whose really to blame but my own.. self. I'm left to collect dust on the shelf amongst the forgotten. it's not often i find myself down. but its often i find myself hiding this frown. turn it around! upside down even! believe me. I've tried. I've envisioned myself flying high above the pain. above the misery that leaves me feeling so disdain from the people around me.. you can find me in the corner. clutching a wrench to fix the pieces left to be mended and if you should happen to desire my presence, then.. well.. thank you. i can't hide the stage of awkward motion I'm in right now. more than a fictional character left to find her happily ever after. again, no one to blame but myself. could that be the reason for my concentrated hate? that i have no other reason nor person to blame for this wait? that i must adhere to myself and pick up the call all on my own? maybe that's the reason that these are the moments where i feel the most alone.

rainy days

rainy days come and they go.
so blissful they breeze by the seems of all we fail to know.
picking up the left behinds and whisking them away to a land..far away.
back in my day we would say "rain rain go away.. come back another day.
But unlike any other day i feel a calming comfort when alerted by bursts of winds and when the storm settles you'll fell better.

rainy days get the best of me.
they get my creativity.
they get that unlike the rest, i have yet to express the simplicity that's instilled in..rainy days.

we nuzzled together to ward off the cold but behold this rainy day came to the rescue to hold you in my arms. This blanket was our armor. this rain was our guard.
these memories will be ours.

soon enough the stars will appear in the distance and then we may dance & kiss til the end is near but sit for a second while the rain does his dance. give it chance to prance for a moment. for soon we shall own the night.

but for today.. its a rainy day.

what do i want?

these moments come in between my everyday routine.
it's like the billowing of the fog that passes but reemerges once again & there after.
I can't escape the laughter in my head that's telling me my current path is left for dead.

ok. rethink this. plan out a new route.
not that easy ya see. ya see its my life man!
it's a daring plan to drop all i've done so far.
years of scars and burns
right & wrong turns that led me to her. you, this!

this place I'm at right now. the same old same.
there's no one to blame. but this isn't a joke. funny i think not.
am I thinking at all? whats my downfall to continuously feel like I'm in the wrong?

it's the journey that counts.
it matters that i never leave this ring of life.
it matters that i open my eyes to opportunities and chances.
it matters that i stop making excuses. it's fucking useless.

repeat it to myself, maybe that'll help.
repeat it to myself, maybe that'll help.
repeat to myself: what do i want?

A new

lets start a new. the kind needed for you.
see, i knew you'd have the feeling, that icky resentment and then just when the realization has set in, I win. We all win.

I'm not here for a battle. just a turn of the tides. bye to the way things were. The past can be a blur, if you let it. let it set in your dome that the sanest place is home. free of clutter. free of negativity and filled to the rim with positivity

give it a shot. I'm not here to point fingers I'm here to say don't linger on what can't be changed. it's strange how the lonely only..well id hate for you to die slowly.. hell at all. so don't let lies & deceit be your downfall.

rise from the bitterness of your past. accept the hands of love in front of you.

it's up to you.
lets start a new