Where did i go Wrong?

as the days go by months fade from memory, one would start to think of all the misery, that one has been through since their timely arrival to this earth, was it all joke from the start? a malicious birth? our lives are planned, so they say but life is better unexpected, its funner that way. I'm nowhere near the best hell not even close so dont compare me to the greats like Van Gogh or Picasso.

i've let down so many people you would think its routine i dont think before i speak they say im so mean. should i just enter the dark realm where only monsters go? crawl in a hole with the synical lows? or should i stand stall in my own faith knowing im only human? but when ur own flesh n blood hacks away at you its hard to keep goin.

but i belive that its my own wrong doings thats keep me down so when i finally get a grip i'll see you around town. I may look shabby, i might look shique, but then i'll know who im truley meant to be.

alone to face this world, to face my true problems at hand. Because i've learned to keep it in never expose it to any man. Keep it to yourself because no one else will understand, i let her down once, i let her down twice, im sure to let her down again.