Saturday, January 29, 2011

i just wanna be happy
- snap out that mushy shit.
i like to be this way for the hell of it
- but moments like that are holdin u back man
i can't, i can't help it
- snap out of the zombie like state
well shit, thats easy for you to say
- well hey, im not the one crying today
im breaking inside and its all my fault
- no not entirely, you're just lost in thought
so what am i suppose to do?
- stop talking to yourself and just move
so should i expect no response after this statement here?


70

im at a lost for words and a lost for feelings because this very moment you're the reason why, why i just cant hold it together. i see you with, her, and her, and her over there. and i think to myself this is less than fair.

what do i lack that forces your eyes to glance over mine?
what dont i posses that forces your hand not into mine?
what do i have to do to change this picture and make you mine?

i guess maybe it's meant to be, in another light.
what hurts the most is that you'll never know.
even upon reading this note it'll never show.
because it passes over your head so effortlessly
so its obvious im one that hurts. Not you, but me


i hate how i feel
how i know its not real
cuz if the feelings were reciprocated
then we could seal the deal

the rhyming was easy but seeing you with her isnt
i go to bed every night dreamin of what im missin
so if i dare sneak a kiss in and act a tad belligerent,
then pull me aside and beg me to act different.

because the tug and tull felt so good
i ask for more knowing i should(nt)
but if its heaven sent then id know, right?
alls well that ends well so this time i'll try with all my might

this might not be my last hint to you
but if you stare a second too long at me,
i'll at least think you knew