Saturday, July 10, 2010

new

when i think about it, i mean really think about it
i tap into this sort of element that i never thought i could imagine
its kinda like one of those random things that just..happen.

like a spat out of thin air you can't explain it
and, dare i say it.. i kinda like it.

then comes along this... thing. you know what i mean?
its not just a thing, its something created like out of a dream.
you know what i mean?

like in a weird way she was meant to walk my same pathway
and so there, there in that way she came to say me gustas
cuz thats the alternative language she speaks, yay or nay? (i say yay)

she arrived in a different package something unexpected.
so naturally i felt the urge to reject it, but.. check it.
i didnt! this chic is hip, but to my surprise i feel a certain crash flip

im not sure if im even suppose to feel like this.
butterflies in my stomach, just nervous n shit, im not suppose to feel like this.

she's of a different sign, obviously a sign unlike mine, but i can say with confidence she isnt fine.
she's beautiful, from the inside her soul shines and im left to swim in her mind like fine wine.

I'm one with the lines so me ponen nerviosa she's the perfect visual aid to aid me in taking the upper hand but yet i feel one step behind because like i said she isnt fine. she's beautiful, so for me its much more than a game of chess, its a chance to boast my best, and win the chance to have her rest on my chest

vamos a tomarlo con calma. creo que serĂ­a la mejor cosa que hacer

thats gonna be hard to do, its new to me, is it new to you?
patience never was my game but ill practice it day and night to try something new.
I can't explain randomness of this connection but heres a free lesson baby don't you even mention it.

this is not a poem.

just straight from the heart. I feel as if my life is falling apart in from of me. Things are happening that, well, i wanted to happen, so i should be happy, right?

Wrong. I'm just all over the place in every aspect of my life. In fact I feel like my L.I.F.E. stands for:
Lost
In
Failing
Efforts.

I just cant seem to get a grip. And at the moment I feel as though I have ZERO control of everything. One minute I'm positive, the next, I'm depressed. I know this wont last forever but it feels like it will. My mind, body, & soul feels alone.

And honestly I cant say anyone is to blame. The people that I've surrounded myself with have done nothing wrong but either its me over reacting and being over dramatic, or it really is time for a change.

Thats why I wanted so badly to get this job and move out but once again, I'm stuck in a room I hate being in that brings me NO peace, single as usual, & up to my neck in debt.

i really need to get back to praying.