what do i want?

these moments come in between my everyday routine.
it's like the billowing of the fog that passes but reemerges once again & there after.
I can't escape the laughter in my head that's telling me my current path is left for dead.

ok. rethink this. plan out a new route.
not that easy ya see. ya see its my life man!
it's a daring plan to drop all i've done so far.
years of scars and burns
right & wrong turns that led me to her. you, this!

this place I'm at right now. the same old same.
there's no one to blame. but this isn't a joke. funny i think not.
am I thinking at all? whats my downfall to continuously feel like I'm in the wrong?

it's the journey that counts.
it matters that i never leave this ring of life.
it matters that i open my eyes to opportunities and chances.
it matters that i stop making excuses. it's fucking useless.

repeat it to myself, maybe that'll help.
repeat it to myself, maybe that'll help.
repeat to myself: what do i want?

A new

lets start a new. the kind needed for you.
see, i knew you'd have the feeling, that icky resentment and then just when the realization has set in, I win. We all win.

I'm not here for a battle. just a turn of the tides. bye to the way things were. The past can be a blur, if you let it. let it set in your dome that the sanest place is home. free of clutter. free of negativity and filled to the rim with positivity

give it a shot. I'm not here to point fingers I'm here to say don't linger on what can't be changed. it's strange how the lonely only..well id hate for you to die slowly.. hell at all. so don't let lies & deceit be your downfall.

rise from the bitterness of your past. accept the hands of love in front of you.

it's up to you.
lets start a new