I refuse.

i refuse to let little disguises as help that are true underlines of hurtful jabs come between me and my quest of self fulfillment of happiness and peace. Sweat the small stuff I will not. Taking each day one by one I have not forgot. I do the best I can with what I have been given. What you fail to know, what others are completely aware of.

So for your lack in understanding and analyzing, I ignore you. Simply put. Though instructions given I will follow, anymore than that, you will not get from me. I sense intimidation or fear. And that my friend is sad. Snarky remarks and or comments will have no affect on me so move on to the next one.

this is not meant to be a soft poem.
simply a statement of how i feel.
this can be universal.
for any boss, co-worker, or peer you come across.

tell yourself, enough is enough.

why?

why mope and grope
dance and prance
rejoice and sing
of the blessings this world brings
why sobe and grunt
may i be blunt?
life could be worse
you could lay in a hearse
so morbid it sounds
but how profound
that life for you
may be none for sue.
or tom or jim
but more than a whim
you live again.
so rejoice and be happy
not cranky or nasty
kiss your loved ones
even your annoying little cousins
send a message of love
thank the skies above
that you can live another day
trust me, its better this way.
♥

im gonna love you.

jumbled together like flocks of a ______. whether you know you the fill in, fill me in as to how we came about to this point. jumbled i am, in confusion i swam to see the truth beaming like a lighthouse. but doubts blocked my vision so here it is my mission. to love you, like no one has ever loved you. come rain or come shine. famous words once sung on that old record player that you broke a year later after my departure.

i expressed that you were gonna love me, like no one was ever gonna love me, come rain or come shine. but then again who am i to make such a claim when at the time, you never claimed to be mine.

and so it begins, the story unfolds to write itself that in due time i'll find someone to love me, like no one has ever loved me, come rain or come shine.

i'll find my missing piece since peace is the last thing i posses. it goes to show you that i put the most important things in check. last but not lease, i will never cease to, find the one. the only one. my one. rain or come shine. she will be mine.