for you

It's no wonder when the skies turn to the thunder it's your way of saying it's time to surrender. Stubborn ways never pay at the end of the night I pray that you'll stay. You assist in my awakening, everything is so real and yet too much to feel. If I can make this move into the next realm I'll feel how you touch me but to venture too close takes the mystery off the ways in which you seem to bless me at every corner.

You flow through me like the sand to the sea and for thee I give you me. Others can't see that glory that u posses. But in due time they will know there are no others above the rest. I speak with my heart open ready to partake in this current blessing, but everyday is a blessing, so no need in stressing. I use to think why me? why her? why now? I won't lie I doubt. But all it takes is a simple brush of wind to know that you still and forever will exist.

why is it that..

every time i see your face smile, i find myself struggling for words?

why is it that..

every time you doubt the beauty you posses i find myself wanting to hold you in my arms?

why is it that..

every time you speak wisdom not of this world, i fall in awe of amazement?

why is it that..

every time we're together, i think how lucky i am to walk right beside you?

maybe it's because theres something telling me that your worth exploring.

maybe it's because you're the risk I'm willing to take.

maybe it's because I've fallen for less so I'm ready this time

who knows unless i try, right?

well give me a try and if you're not satisfied, I'll gladly step aside and aid in your quest to find the best, so rest your pretty little head on my shoulder because it's getting colder out there with no one to hold, so be bold and take that chance. I say we dance, just like we did that night. It felt so new it had to be right. I won't give up and settle for lame, It's you who I want to tame.

confused?

Why yes, thank you for the acknowledgement. Conversations with a fellow friend of random odds n ends is the best kind of time spent. I came to her with problems in my hand and laid them on the table to blame the man. She told me theres no hope in false accusations so I reshuffled my hand and explained the situations.

They're very simple you see, I'm a girl who likes girls, who likes girls, who likes girls, that look like boys. See? Well if you didn't get it how hard can it be? once more from the top, one, two, three. I'm a girl, who likes girls, who likes girls, who look like boys.

I can't make it any simpler if I tried to. So if your still there for a listen I thank you. I'm really not that complicated because I hide it well. When i was younger I took apart a pencil sharpener and put it back together again. Was that random? oh well.

Because girls like it when I make their toes curl, but unfurl the emotion from the bottom of the ocean so time can unwind from refined to rural. New age element is what we're living in, happiness disguise through sin, but don't give in too soon, not yet a full moon, to set your heart a blazin, isn't it amazing? how one girl can fool you? I thought about it the other day, when she glanced my way. I said "hey!" She looked away, but to my dismay she came to sit by me, bought me some coffee. We conversed over her converse, black they were, mysterious as her persona, but I could still smell the aroma of the honessty she portrayed when she gave me a kiss. This, this is what dreams are made of, left to bask in the sun, roll around have some fun, time is endless when your in love.

Love is a word

rarely heard

since we crush the dreams

of things unseen

it's gone from our eyes

but merely in disguise

so check your pockets

for rockets and sockets

and fix that glitch

to make it appear

because here

is a word

that is rarely heard.

Thank You.

what it feels like for a girl

Those feelings go unheard when the same is preferred. Bottle up the emotions to keep things steady a floatin but I cant promise the glass won't shatter because I'm only human but to you that doesn't matter so when I leave for the fifth time you better not come after, tears down my face confused with laughter.

Questions build up from this mess of misery, what am to do? suppose to do? is it her? or me? well I don't know, she never said say anything, so don't plan that trip just from your assuming. I'd like to call it planning ahead but walking the streets dark and alone will have me dead. "I feel so stupid!" since when did I even feel? It's better to go back to trusting no one since the theory of happily ever after isn't real.

Fables and lies stuffed with ooo's and aahh's, make children grow up believing they can make it if they try because isn't it just the two of us? the two of us can make it, if we try? Thats that song that made me wanna go on a rampage, the next chapter is a mystery to me too so just turn the next page.

I think better when i'm silent and focused like a cheetah on the kill, only difference with that is he seeks that thrill of tearing out the heart of his prey. I only wanted you to stay. Just a little while longer till the hurt has healed but it's my fault right? that wasn't part of the deal.

ok, I gotcha, I'll just head on home now, I should make this my last footstep, my final bow. I can't take this shit anymore! I thought I had the upper hand! I guess I was only fooling myself...... again.

holga holga holga

oh boy oh boy oh boy!

I think I saw one of these at a thrift store a few weeks back. If so im taking it! The price tag was only $45 bucks. Why so cheap you ask? Well these camera's were made in china and are pretty much a basic formatting toy camera. To see one you would think it's a birthday gift for a 6 year old. But the plus side to that is that they take amazing photos with medium format (120mm) film.

case in point: this camera...

took these photos:

SIMPLY...amazing.

happy shooting!(pics that is)

♥

intensity building, tense in my shoulders circling the kill, muzzle to the ground, words spoken forever profound, never investigate the teaching of a guru for any attempt will have him floored to fool you.

trickery and lies surface like the flood of the past,

thou cup runneth over so surrender to your fate for soon your hate will not last.

my army is ten fold duplicated in the attempt to break this pack

there will be hell to pay, soon all demons cast.

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transform into any emotion, your pick at the choosin, be careful the decision, may leave your heart as an unhealed incision.

needy is the feeling, longing is the desire, no matter how far the journey i will get higher. Wise words from a foolish man, in disguise he tells lies to teach you to play your hand.

just breathe out the stressors of the world sucked in too much will leave your lungs black as night, take flight into the night as we kiss because its only right.

way past due since the last time, so lets make out to make up for the lost time.

recurring

recurring dreams of

what should be, what could be, what would be, if only...

I lived up to my reality, i can be,

what should be, what could be, what would be, if only...

I follow my heart in desert storms & conquer my souls desire, then I can be,

what should be, what could be, what would be, if only...

There were something to hold me, mold me into that spectacle of amazement so that i can be,

what should be, what could be, what would be, if only...

you were with me

♥

I rest my mind with these bags packed around my feet, gathered thoughts take flight in this weather of defeat. a night train to midnight, storming through this mystery of heartache to see a sunny day, a blessing for me is a moment away.

Seasons change it'll never be the same so im hoping i never stay the same. Catch the red eye tonight and play the guessing game, who knows where this storm will leave me, since human nature is embedded I must be set free.

All choked up, and nervous, about the journey thats to come, winter has arrived and warmth I have none. I'm shaking, to the core, so afraid of the seasons scorn, fall in place to see spring arrive, better unaware like a much welcomed surprise.

Seasons change it'll never be the same so im hoping i never stay the same. If I stay put for long I might never stay sane. Birds and the bees awaken my nightmare, sound the alarms to catch me from falling , I'll leave you a postcard with my heart fully scarred i swear.

lonely souls

Mrs. Scott said "im taking my freedom, putting it in my soul..." I left my soul out to fry, left to die. Who may walk by to aid this lonely soul only heaven knows. Slowly though, it knows that on these lonely streets beats the heart of her pair. There, over there i saw, may i dare say it?

There goes her lonely soul, waiting to be aided by the fellow that is I. I twinkle toe to her rescue singing "The Summer wind, came blowing in from across the sea, it lingered there to touch your hair and walk with me..."So pick yourself up we've got lines to live by.

we can be the strongest team

just the two of us left to sing

a simple song

all the day long

of our once lonely souls

Two lonely souls should only be lonely no more. We tell each other of past endevours. When we baked on side streets, waiting for each others heart beats because we were each others pair. There, over there i saw, our dream.

Many roads lead to you, i was once on a dark path shuffling to get to you. I see now that all that can be will only be true because baby theres no me with out you. A lonely fool a lonely fool you see.

we can be the strongest team

just the two of us left to sing

a simple song

all the day long

of our once lonely souls

Is it possible to love you? is it possibly to kiss you? is it possible to know you? time will tell because to you I'm just a lonely fool