dime peice

seen a frame the other day not same mundain, nah, she was the ilest, realist eva thang i had eva sean.

she, had a walk that was made for a train, to follow her, wallow in her glory, looked like a queen straight outta 10 page centerfold story.

i approached wit caution cuz i knew she had heard it all, tryn not to fall under her spell, but still i fell.

my , my, my name is cuh, cuh, catrina, and uh its nice to meetcha. thats the best i had but still so glad that she glanced at my eyes with them thick ol thighs and to my surprise she conjured up her name.

she..conjured up her name.

and then, be fore i knew it, we sat down to kick it, spiting mad game she was the one to blame, for my lame attempts to be hip, but she caught on to the scheme, and added into a theme intitled "you & me".

somethings new

im sitting among a sea of familiar faces, connected through old and new relations, conversations of empty revelation and one thing i keep contemplatin is what has me feeling so impatient to just walk up and gather my thoughts and things because this.just.isnt.my.scene. and do ya know what i mean?

i just cant submerge myself under mindless configurations, so i think its about time i make my escape and break. away from this crowd, the lack of luster seems to be growing to loud for my liking, n sometimes great minds don't think a like so i'll do us a favor and save the heartache for later.

held back from this stress? yes

better than the rest? no

am i better than the rest? maybe

you a bit to ahead of yourself. so?

i keep repeating to myself i deserve better, in every sense of the word, but to my dismay those phrases are never heard, to the listening ear my thoughts go deaf, left to collect dust, like a doll on the shelf, so cleshay that line, so behave that behind, this girl is out of line, got me goin out.of.my.mind

a desire to move away, so far away has long been my craving, but failed attempts at scrimping and saving, leaves me with a painstaking, heart breaking, realization that maybe this isnt the way to leave today.

i deserve the best damnit! im not asking for a sundae with cherries on top! just a few scoops of freakin ice cream!. the lack of respect i receive from my fellow peers makes me scream! I feel unnoticed like a fly on the wall, unfazed as people pass through. Is my presence felt? or merely forgotten, never to be dealt.with.

lethargic

pause it

im melting away from this dull moment.