sick.

such a novel scholar as i holler words on to the page. in hopes that they may awake one day to save a space for me in your heart.

that was just a start to see how far it could get me. you get me. like no one else does. you shrug it off like yesterdays news.

those simple clues should be a clue for me to forget about you. be that as it may. i still thought of you today.

strangely enough ive yet to have enough. you've had it up to here with tricks and whose turn is it to pick where we eat tonight?

not a date? ah great. just a friendly reminder of what i'll never have with her.
dinner by candle light seems too bright for her. it seems too much to handle. too much of a scandal to consume when rumors blossom and bloom of how we fell in love in june.

but yet i can see a lot of life in you. i can see a lot of bright in you.
enough to guide me down the darkness stricken path of loneliness.

its happiness you posses so obsessed i've become so i guess im done.
my time is near, this too shall pass my dear.

for i fear that i am not the only who will love you. my only plea is that you'll just in the same love me.

i huddle for safety to hide from the light.
so bright it flashes like thunder in the night.
i hurry for shelter, but your arms were better.
im lost in the fight of whats wrong or right.
i take the place of pain in all its sorrow
i wait for a better tomorrow.
the sound of your voice haunts these halls
i search for you but yet fall short again.
im left to wish again
wanting again to see you here.
where you left me dear.
in all my misery i still see the beauty in you and me.

false hope i own
the reason im alone.

i can't.

i've seen the look in your eyes.
a thousand times as i pass you by.
as it were every other day.
to my dismay this was the way
you captured my heart.
you captured my soul
only to hold it tight.
but with all my might
i try to let go.
because only the lord knows
that this old story goes:
there once stood a girl
who loved enough for the whole world
but was burned too many times
now fine are her lines.
so i've seen that look in your eye
as i passed you by
a thousand times
to save myself
the hurt and pain
i walk around alone and mundane.
i may fight again one day to regain the strength to win the battle
the fact of the matter is...this.
if i give in, and let you win. then letting up on the war will be my biggest sin.