in between

the unknown is a bit of a worry for me

i, create these problems for myself knowing that i'll never get the answer i was looking for.

in due time for sure, will i know whats meant to be. but for now i guess i have to go because theres nothing there for me.

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i know its common,

to speak of beginnings yet to pass

but all i have are promises that projects them to last

i have all the time in your world,

if only theres a place to be

im only one human being whose destined to be free

free of the darkness that solitude binds me to.

i want so dearly to see you here with me

but i know that in due time you'll understand that its with me that you'll find peace.

not another line passed over the waves of gluttony, and mundane. but a decree as loud as my love that whats meant to be will be..

so i guess, there in that moment, i must sit back and count the days for your realization. but this steady contemplation of what decision you'll make has my heart on the edge bracing for a break.

im not the patient type, so don't believe the hype. but im the gracious type and i'll fight with all my might.

none of the above might take hold, but one thing is if for certain; these feelings never get old.

♥

blessing.

i live to learn that life lives on in each and every one of us.

tho the dust has yet to settle im still reminded of the moments we cherished.

tho small and few they packed a heavy memory big enough to last a lifetime.

you, are the reason, i thank God for breath in a refreshed way. its sad yes that something so tragic had to spark in me the love the lord has for me, but through it all i see that you, were a blessing. taken too soon? or right on time? either way i know that you're in heaven laughing and telling jokes, you got me into zeitgeist. heated discussions about politics and whose feet were bigger. yours of course. i wish i knew you better, but im just glad to have known you at all. you are loved and missed, but remain in the hearts of every young human being whose life you've touch.

and for that, you deserve to rest in peace.

♥

H.N.

the usual

i love ya its true

or maybe i just love that i love someone like you

im confused as to what to do.

i never thought that this would happen, huh, who knew.

i guess i always did. because i forced myself to.

in hopes that we'd be for each other in harmony too.

im so scared, just really scared and frightened of who i might love

not for face value or mere appearance but that they wont be you, yeah that sounds dumb

i'll get over it one day, yeah right... unless you say that.. im the one?

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you would think id be tired of writing poems about you right?

well its funny to think, well, actually, i didn't think of you all night.

some would call it obsession with a slight dash of desperation

but i call it a dash of aspiration for grasping everything i find dashing

and to ad to my admiration of your beauty, to me, you look sexy with no make up on

so, go on. stay naked for the rest of the day. dont mask yourself with mascara. tell her, maybline or that other covergirl that if they so choose to cover themselves then so be it. but the way i see it, your beauty surpasses a million billboards and of course you look stunning today. as any other day would have it. night time too. those freakles, those lines, that smile, all mine... i wish.

i miss what ive yet to have if had the chance i say we dance all night. no grind against the time just sway to the sounds of our heartbeats and with these feet we move.

all of the above is what id whisper to your ear if, well, you were here.

but you're not. i forgot. once again because i lost touch with reality in thinking that, umm, ohh, i dont know you'd see me as more than a friend. but here i am, again. stuck in the seat left alone to face defeat because i keep chasing this dream.

whats wrong with me?

only time will tell but ah hell, for the time being let me just be.

in all my misery ill find a way to resurface and gain clarity.

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