somethings new

im sitting among a sea of familiar faces, connected through old and new relations, conversations of empty revelation and one thing i keep contemplatin is what has me feeling so impatient to just walk up and gather my thoughts and things because this.just.isnt.my.scene. and do ya know what i mean?

i just cant submerge myself under mindless configurations, so i think its about time i make my escape and break. away from this crowd, the lack of luster seems to be growing to loud for my liking, n sometimes great minds don't think a like so i'll do us a favor and save the heartache for later.

held back from this stress? yes

better than the rest? no

am i better than the rest? maybe

you a bit to ahead of yourself. so?

i keep repeating to myself i deserve better, in every sense of the word, but to my dismay those phrases are never heard, to the listening ear my thoughts go deaf, left to collect dust, like a doll on the shelf, so cleshay that line, so behave that behind, this girl is out of line, got me goin out.of.my.mind

a desire to move away, so far away has long been my craving, but failed attempts at scrimping and saving, leaves me with a painstaking, heart breaking, realization that maybe this isnt the way to leave today.

i deserve the best damnit! im not asking for a sundae with cherries on top! just a few scoops of freakin ice cream!. the lack of respect i receive from my fellow peers makes me scream! I feel unnoticed like a fly on the wall, unfazed as people pass through. Is my presence felt? or merely forgotten, never to be dealt.with.

lethargic

pause it

im melting away from this dull moment.