what do i want?

these moments come in between my everyday routine.
it's like the billowing of the fog that passes but reemerges once again & there after.
I can't escape the laughter in my head that's telling me my current path is left for dead.

ok. rethink this. plan out a new route.
not that easy ya see. ya see its my life man!
it's a daring plan to drop all i've done so far.
years of scars and burns
right & wrong turns that led me to her. you, this!

this place I'm at right now. the same old same.
there's no one to blame. but this isn't a joke. funny i think not.
am I thinking at all? whats my downfall to continuously feel like I'm in the wrong?

it's the journey that counts.
it matters that i never leave this ring of life.
it matters that i open my eyes to opportunities and chances.
it matters that i stop making excuses. it's fucking useless.

repeat it to myself, maybe that'll help.
repeat it to myself, maybe that'll help.
repeat to myself: what do i want?