this is not a poem.

just straight from the heart. I feel as if my life is falling apart in from of me. Things are happening that, well, i wanted to happen, so i should be happy, right?

Wrong. I'm just all over the place in every aspect of my life. In fact I feel like my L.I.F.E. stands for:

Lost

In

Failing

Efforts.

I just cant seem to get a grip. And at the moment I feel as though I have ZERO control of everything. One minute I'm positive, the next, I'm depressed. I know this wont last forever but it feels like it will. My mind, body, & soul feels alone.

And honestly I cant say anyone is to blame. The people that I've surrounded myself with have done nothing wrong but either its me over reacting and being over dramatic, or it really is time for a change.

Thats why I wanted so badly to get this job and move out but once again, I'm stuck in a room I hate being in that brings me NO peace, single as usual, & up to my neck in debt.

i really need to get back to praying.