keep it locked

i try not to leech on what could possibly be with something that seems to be drawn to me, but my nature has forced this kind of uncertainty to become my destiny so i fall weak on knees and pray for mercy.

be strong for the broken and one day i too will be chosen but times a tickin and im just so afraid its just sickenin, but then again, whats fair in this world consumed with sin. i pray for love, i pray for life as corny as this next line i pray for my wife.

is it too much to boast of the dreams ive had?

is it too much to scream out loud because im mad?

is it too much to hold in for fear of making her sad?

is it too much? good. im glad.

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depression of all depressions sink in like an unwanted lesson. i take hold of the head board and pull up for air, hope to see her soon such a teaser like the scent of her hair. It blew in the wind to signify the end. I'm all tapped out, i'm at the end of my rope so to kiss your cheek again i see hope.

a sparkle of light, a flicker of love, i saw you the other day but yet it's just not the same. A lover lost is the worst of all, so dare i fall, into the souls of you all, to spread my desires and think of me when you seek out what it is that makes you go higher because I..I couldn't take it anymore.

im stronger no more, no more than the average man whose taken his last breath.