or trying so hard while knowing you still won't win?
i felt another dagger to the heart, nothing new like the last
hopeful once again about the future, but, nothing new like my past.
who am i to think that i'd ever find the one?
leave me alone, don't talk to me, im done.
done trying to stay optimistic, done trying to believe
because when you've given all you've got, & still don't succeed,
thats worst damage done, the worst kind of action, the kind that makes your soul bleed.
yes im down
yes im sad
yes i'd rather moup
due to things i've never had.
dont tell me things will get better, because you speak from experience. I've yet to know the feeling hence....
I've yet to know the feeling of commitment since...since i can't even remember since its yet to exist!
im angry, im upset, im depressed, im jealous, im annoyed, im hurt, im forgotten, tossed aside, any more adjectives and you'd lead me to die.
no im not suicidal just dispirited & downhearted
tonight might be the night were i sleep feeling exhausted.
tired, and confused as to what i can do.
companionless and emotionless
so what else can i do?
stuck sitting here with a puzzled look on my face, because i ache for another living soul to feel for me. selfish that sounds so excuse me.
so if you're reading this and find yourself saying "oh get over it", then imagine your life without your numerous lovers and past confidantes, and tell me then how to "get over it."
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