A.S.

what needed to be said was spoken, and the last thing that rung true may have left a heart broken. if not for the truth then the mending process would cease to exist. but that doesn't fade away the feelings for that longing kiss.

no sudden change in emotions from tense to relax, i just sit back in a pensive state and contemplate the destruction that left me with a lack of air to grasp.

i wonder whats on her mind and at times feel estranged to arrange a soft melody to play along those fallen tears and to hear her say those things only brings me to the dreadful conclusion that.... maybe it was an illusion.

that maybe everything i longed and hoped for was so far away for a reason.

because the space it takes for me to travel the world and search for your heart leaves me with that same time span to understand that i can't have everything i wanted and i thought of it.. last night when i took flight in the clouds and came crashing down and all that surrounded me was... nothing.

im all alone to grow, to think in my on fortitude and how rude of anything to think that i have came so far as to be the only one whose left this place with the feeling of a job not well done.

so much to do in a sense that i feel overwhelmed and at the same time i feel as though time stops when i get butterflies and a wave of sighs pass my by...

im not happy, not complacent even.

im just trying to understand this feelin of .. of what have i done?

has a new chapter begun in the element of what has yet to become? of us?

im trying to trust in everything that i can believe in and yet again this moment has arose that pushes me at a crossroad of peace or sin.

how you see me as something for the future i may never know.

i guess thats something that God will reveal and show.

to me a blessing so good i sometimes can't see..

until it's too late and it's left me in the wind with regret and misery.

i just hope that this isn't one of those races, where im chasing the dream only to get passed up by reoccuring faces, such as defeat, loss, and what is the cost when you give up in the end?

thats a question i'd rather not answer.

just say at the end of the day that with all my faults you will still see me as that human being you feel in like with and i promise that i'll return the favor with an endless supply of kisses...

if that should not be enough then for you i'll extend my deepest love.