i just

sit and wonder for a second
is it a blessin or a curse
which hand to pick
stuck in a rut
of past thoughts n mis-trust.

i play my hand at the game
to see what i land on
a land-mine for wired dimes spilling secrets from the pores of open sores. i guess i was a bore. fixated you were, this whole process was a blur.

such a silly game i play when my heart is on the line.
i contemplate the ways to make you all mine.

but if in all honestly you'd rather be without me then go ahead and leave me. i lack the time and the patience to be stuck around babysittin, cryin n wishin that it was I you were missin.

ill take it day by day.
as only my mom would say.
shit its the only way.
will i give up this way?
i fail to know if i do or dont
but a mental break is what i need to feel ok today.